simpanlah...

Saya tidak kisah, saya tidak care.
Jangan beritahu saya apa-apa...
saya memang faham kewujudan takdir...
Kamu memang bertakdir, kamu sering terserempak, kamu bersefahaman,
segala pengalaman dikongsi, segala tabiat dipelajari,
kamu tahu bila dia ada, bila dia tipu, bila dia keluar...
kamu memang berjodoh, berjodoh jadi yang 'rapat'...
saya tidak memerlukan ape-pe maklumat,
tiap maklumat dikongsi menjadi peringatan, peringatan bahawa jodoh memang tidak mampu dipaksa...
kalau bukan saya yang diberitahui, bukan saya yang pelajari,

memang bukanlah hak saya utk mengetahui...

Simpanlah kisah kamu,
simpanlah amalannya yang kau tahu...
simpanlah saja...

saya yang tidak tahu akan terus menjadi "si tidak tahu"...

我想

我找不到很好的原因
去阻挡这一切的情意

我才发现你很遥远
请告诉我怎么走到终点
没有人了解 没有人像我和陌生人的爱恋
我想我会开始想念你
可是我刚刚才遇见了你

我想我已慢慢喜欢你
因为我拥有爱情的勇气

~采自“恶作剧”~~

这也是个恶作剧, 嘻嘻^_^~~~

Impossible

Is there really such a thing known as the impossible?

Nike says, Impossible is nothing.

But making someone love you if there is no mutual feelings is impossible.

Waking the dead is impossible.

Escaping the cruel reality is impossible.

Forcing someone to do something he does not want to do is impossible.

Telling me to not love you is impossible.

I love my life, my family and most of all, my darling friends...(my icecream sisters...)
Though life is filled of impossible missions, but I cherish everything tiny thing that makes my life so beautiful...

It is POSSIBLE to live happily ever after, isn't it?

What I want??

Recently, I've been thinking about what I really want with my life.

Destiny has brought me one of the greatest universities in the world, brought me the greatest friends I could ever wished for...

I know I am obligated to learn actuarial math and economics. It was my choice of major 2 years ago...

I don't hate math, but I am not really sure whether I love it...honestly, I'm still unable to say that I love doing math, especially math 424...I can only say that I don't dislike it, it is still manageably likeable...Like the carrot in the salad...not too bad to eat, but I won't want to eat it everyday....

Now, I really think that a simple life can be happy...
I don't need much to be happy...just a stable job, doing everything I like,
be by the side of the people I love, I will be contented...

But, after knowing aya Ueto's story, I feel that if I don't do everything I could with all the abilities that she had lost, I am wasting what destiny bestowed me with...

Still, I don't possess all the strength and courage she has.
Nonetheless, I will try my best, my BEST to live everyday to the fullest,
to honor Aya, and many other countless heroes...

Life is really beautiful, isn't it?

Privilege Vs Luck

I am blessed, there are always people around me to help me, to give me that crucial push and pull when I fell.

I dunno why, but I feel guilty.
I took a shortcut, with senior's kind assistance, I can register for the class I want to take so badly...but I feel as if I had done sth really bad, hurting someone that I dunt even know whether they exist. I feel like I have taken some opportunities away from innocent ppl that work hard to earn their credits and priority...

But if I didn't do so, I would never have the chance to take the piano class that I love...
When there is door to my goal, how can I walk away?
It's just a favor, a short cut, the only way to reach the destination...but I just can't purge my guilt (a silly feeling in this practical world...)

I really feel thankful to all these helpful seniors and friends. It is my problem, I just don't know what is right or wrong anymore...

Ahhh, I should just stop thinking too much and just follow the path life takes me...

1 Liter of Tears

With Meichen, I finished watching this touching Japanese drama. It talks about Aya Ikeuchi, who contracted a cellebral degeneration brain disease that caused her to lose all her motor skills gradually.

With her family's support and this nice (yasashii, 温柔) Aso Haruto guy's love, she grows strong and face her disease bravely.

It is adapted from the real story of Kita Aya, she contracted the disease and wrote her diary throughout her illness, her novel is named 1 ritoru no namida (1 liter of tears).

Seeing how she struggled to do everything that a common person does everyday, how she wish she could turn back the time, I am touched T.T and thankful.

We are really blessed...

1. We can walk

2. We can speak

3. We can do sports

4. We can sew

5. We can get married

6. We are healthy....

Health, family and friends are really essential...

We should and must cherish every tiny blessing in life...

To honor Aya...the angel that brings hope with her torment-filled life.

Btw, the character Aso Haruto (fictional I supposed) is the perfect guy for Aya.

He is the gentlest, kindest, most considerate, cutest, sweetest man...

I wish there is just an Aso Haruto for every girl in the world...

I wish every boy could be as good as kind as he is...

Arrr..knock knock..time to snap out of my fantasy and go write my English paper...

its a blessing to be able to dream and fantasize too...hehe

Watch this if you can...its the best of all Japanese dramas (if not all dramas in the world)...